Oct 20, 2011

Two Years

It's been two years, tomorrow, since I stood next to my mother and watched her leave us.  It was a long and painful road to get there.  Saying goodbye that crisp morning felt like somewhat of a relief, knowing she was no longer suffering.  At that point I thought that was the end.  But I've learned it was really just the beginning. The beginning of learning to live life without my mom/best friend.  Because she had been sick for so many months before, I thought I was used to the fact that I couldn't call her everyday or that she wouldn't be at special events or holidays.  But still now, two years later there continue to be revelations of things that she won't be able to witness.  There are times that I want nothing more than to be able to pick up the phone and get her advice on something.

Blog posts I wrote during her suffering, losing her and grieving.


The Apple Doesn't Fall Far From the Tree

Yeah...I don't think so...

The Prayer of My Heart

Sorry

I breathe in and breathe out....

Memories

Why I Haven't I?

 My mom was a tough lady who loved to be silly and make people laugh.  She loved her grandkids and was so good to them.  She was never afraid to tell you what she really thought.  She was a great friend and my favorite person to shop with.  I know that she is in a better place now but I still ache to spend more time with her.

18 comments:

  1. Oh Lisa....I can't imagine your pain. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you can look back and remember your mom as your best friend and confidante.

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  2. I'm sorry for this tough day today! I'm glad you have nice memories of your mom. I'm sure it's hard not having her around.

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  3. I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine.

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  4. Lisa, I am so sorry for your loss and know that your mom is up there looking down with pride at what a wonderful person you are! {Hugs}

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  5. I am so sorry her time with you was cut short. :(

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  6. I'm so sorry for your loss. May you find comfort in knowing she is at peace. Praying for your strength and peace today.

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  7. I'm so sorry for your loss. She sounded like an amazing woman and mother.

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  8. Lisa, I am so sorry for your loss. One of my biggest fears currently is losing my dad because his health is going downhill so quickly. Some nights I cry myself to sleep just thinking about losing him, so I cannot imagine how the last two years have been for you. ((HUGS)) I'll say a prayer for your comfort tonight.

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  9. ((hugs)) my dad died a year and 3 days ago and everyday is still terrible.

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  10. Losing anyone is tough, let alone a parent. I cannot imagine *hugs*

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  11. omgosh, I am so sorry. My mom is elderly and I know it won't be much longer before I will be facing this kind of pain also. I hope you find comfort in knowing that she is up there, somewhere, watching over you.

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  12. So sorry for you, my dad has been gone 4 months, and it still seems unbelievable.

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  13. I'm so sorry for your loss.. this is a tough month for me as well as it marks the 5th and 8th year for my parents..

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