Aug 15, 2012

Sometimes I Miss

I've said it before, and I'm sure I'll say it again, possibly just because I'm constantly trying to convince myself but I really do think that getting divorced is the best thing for everyone involved.  I think its healthier for my kids and myself.  But that doesn't mean it's easy.  It doesn't mean I never have doubts.  And it definitely doesn't mean there aren't things I miss having.

I really miss having someone around after the kids go to bed.  Having someone to torture with my taste in ridiculous reality TV.  I miss having someone to cuddle with.  I miss having an extra set of hands, ones that (typically) pick up more messes than they make as opposed to the kids who seem to compound them mess even when they are TRYING to be helpful.  I miss having an extra set of eyes to watch the kids.  I miss having someone be truly glad to spend time with me, to kiss goodnight, and hello.  I really just miss feeling truly loved and appreciated.

And apparently sometimes I miss some of these things enough that I will even Facebook them...I swear I hadn't been drinking but I woke up this morning and was surprised by responses to my status I had completely forgotten I had posted at about midnight which safely falls into the over-sharing category I am quickly becoming known for.

The ironic part of this, I really never got most of the things I miss on a consistent basis anyway...
So maybe its less missing something I've lost as longing for something I've always wanted....


  1. Down the road when you're healed and ready, you may end up with just what you had hoped for in the beginning. :) Hugs!

  2. What Liz said. Definitely. I know it's HARD right now (did you know I've been there?) but it gets better. I promise.

    1. Lindsay,
      I did NOT know you'd been there. Will have to chat soon!!

  3. I can't imagine how hard it is, Lisa. Can't even begin to so I will just offer my prayers and lot of ((HUGS)).

  4. Lisa, I have btdt, and I know how difficult it is! and how lonely and confusing it can be!

  5. Oh Lisa, I can't even imagine. You're a strong woman and it will get easier.

  6. I hope that one of these days you find all the things that you are looking for.

  7. You'll find everything you went and need when the time is right. For now, keep sharing if that helps you get through the day!


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