Plussize Blogger Update 4

SO I'm technically not part of the challenge anymore. They didn't include one of my updates so I was booted as not participating. Oh well, such is life.
But I've decided to keep posting about it anyway. Not that I have much to write. I've still not done anything to truly track any loses. BUT I figure this way I can track my small victories at least.

As this week wraps up, I just have one week left in my commitment to abstain from sweets for Lent. I'm really proud of how I've done with that but I've still got some serious work to do with the rest of my vices. But I think I'm going to stay commited to no sweets for me. As much as I can over indulge on just about anything I really am finding that it's nothing compared to the massive amounts of empty calories I can down when it comes to the sweets.

We've been eating dinner right after the boys get home from school as we've learned they eat really well when we do this. However, for me this means I am truly starving before I go to bed. So I've been having something instead of making myself suffer. Some nights I do better than others. One night I had two small bags of chips...but I've decided that the small bags are still the better thing for me to have in the house as I feel like I've really over done it with 2 bags yet if it were one big bag, I'd easily sit and eat twice as much. Last night I had 2 hot dogs. Ok so some veggies or something would have been better but I had spent over two hours resisting the cake from the best local bakery at a school function so I figured a little protein was really not such a horrible choice!

At least I feel like I'm moving, very slowly, in the right direction.

Are you a Hungry Girl?

Have you heard of the Hungry Girl? I was just introduced to her recently and would love to win her cookbook, which is being given away by my awesome friend Tricia. If you go and enter and mention that you're there because I sent you, we could BOTH win!!!

So go enter her contest...

Plussizebloggers Update 3

In case you're really paying attention and notice that this is Update 3 and you don't recall Update 2, don't go searching...apparently I missed a week.

So anyway, I have to confess I broke under some serious peer pressure last weekend and ate an amazingly delicious slice of cheesecake. But it was for a good cause, really it was. It was a church fundraiser and my father had made it without any help. I had to see if it was a good as it looked. I mean, really, after this attempt I don't think he's ever going to try that again. And who can blame him? I LOVE cheesecake but they are a lot of work!

But aside from that little slip up and an occasional licking of pudding off my fingers when feeding Bryan, I've been doing pretty darn good. Can I just tell you how hard it is to help him with a thing of pudding and not sit down and eat an entire four pack myself? Yeah, that's probably how I got in this predicament in the first place, huh?

SO in addition to staying away from everything in the "sweets" category I've also given up soda. Luckily, the physical withdrawal has been minimal so it's really just been about breaking the habit. At one point this week I went out to lunch and got a 'meal' that included a fountain drink. I opted for the 'lite' lemonade and when they asked if I wanted to plus size that, scratch that, make that a large for just 20 cents more I had to actually make a conscious choice to say No. In the end, it wouldn't have mattered, I couldn't even finish the lemonade as it was...light..BLECH!

I've been trying to make better choices in over all eating too...getting grilled chicken instead of burger etc. But I still don't think any of it's making a real difference. But I think this weekend I'm going to do measurements and track that way. You know, since I STILL don't have a scale.

Plus Size Bloggers Update 1

So I'm a total slacker and haven't gotten a darn scale yet. Ok, it's not like I've been sitting on the couch eating bon bon's or anything, life is pretty busy for us. But I haven't a clue if my efforts of cutting out all the sugary goodness I usually indulge in regularly meant anything.
But I'm pretty proud of myself nonetheless. I'm really hoping that by making small changes a little at a time MAYBE the changes will be real and will actually stick. So first I'm attempting to slay my sugar addiction. And this year I am batting a thousand! Ok, not a thousand because I keep forgetting to get diet soda's but I'm thinking I am going to cut out the soda this coming week as well. I'm not physically addicted to the soda right now so there is no excuse for it.
So, now numbers to share. But I think maybe that's a good thing for me. I can simply enjoy my victory in what I wanted to accomplish and not dwell on what that meant on the scale.
One small step, but at least its in the right direction!

Plus Size Bloggers, Week 1

About a week ago I noticed the hashmark #plussizeblogger on twitter and I had to find out what it was all about. (If you're not familiar with twitter, a hashmark is used when twitter users use twitter "party" together. Which essentially makes twitter into a chatroom.)What I found was a group of fellow bloggers who are also fellow plus sizers. Although I'm not really a fan of using that term myself. Not that it doesn't fit, but honestly, using it to describes myself makes me feel like I'm doing a disservice to other plus sized women. So in the name of full disclosure, I'm not chubby, I'm not fluffy, I'm not just plus sized. I'm morbidly obese. Actually, I'm just shy of being morbidly obese twice. Yeah, I'm pushing being 200 pounds over weight. While I have yet to have that result in any medical diagnosis from that but I also haven't been to the Dr since my two year old was 6 weeks old. At one point a few years ago I lost weight, a really decent amount of weight and was 100 pound lighter than I am now. I felt amazing. So why'd I let this happen again?? I really don't have a good answer. Part of the reason was that when I lost the weight I was home full time, able to have the foods I needed around me and plenty of time to exercise every day. I tried when I went back to work but it was simply harder. Then there's the emotional part. Food is my drug. I use to celebrate and to mourn! And there's been a LOT to mourn in the last several years.
But now it's time. It's time to do something. So I've signed up with plussizebloggers.com to try and stay on track. I have no thoughts of a major life change as the calendar flips. What I hope for is a series of small changes. First challenge...is to figure out how to track my weight when I don't even own a scale